some brain fart before THE call

Saying yes would mean:

• giving up all my Saturdays -- on second thought, I bum on Saturdays and no regular night-outs, so its really giving up a free day. On a more specific note, this would mean I cannot be out all day in mall, no Saturday lunches with friends, and no house-hopping. And no, TGIF's
  
• waking up at 6 everyday -- maybe this means time to grow up. I guess the real grown up life doesn't exactly start the day at 10.
• paying taxes -- which would mean I will be earning. It sucks how earning manages to blur your choices. I think of the books and the shoes and the nice things, and in a moment of weakness (and should I add materialism), everything seems right with the world.
  
• being a non-liability to the government -- productive, able citizen
• being out of the house
• settling? or stepping up?
  
• meeting new people
• being too scared to say no and wait some more
  
• putting 177 to practice -- excites and scares me both at the same time
• reporting to the "NOT easy" boss
• giving up the @internship
  
• growing up -- well.
  

Saying no would mean

• staying stuck in the house
• going back to crossing my fingers something good comes along
• getting to bead at 10 in the morning
• sleeping at 3 in the morning -- in an attempt to zoom to OTH season 3 :P
• getting to go anywhere, anytime -- although the fact that I'm not earning kind of nullifies this one.
• being able to jump rope any time I want -- and pop in the exercise tape (doesn't happen a lot, so not a problem, really)
• opening that chance of flying out again
• waiting -- testing my frayed patience, all possible ways
• I'm not really sure